I really frick'n hate it when my mind wanders and causes me to second guess my decisions and choices I came upon on this lovely journy we like to call life. I'm afraid... really afraid. Not because I'm starting college, not because I'm going to be out on my own, but because I don't know how to act in society. I have been....basicly cut off from the outside world...forbidden to watch T.V. or putz around with my friends. I don't know how to be around people, somedays I just want to hide under the covers and not get out of bed.... I confuse myself all the time, my life and imagination mix it up, creating an alternate world inside of my head, one where I rather live in. I'm naive in oh so many aspects of life.... and I hate it. I have trouble letting things go.... past hopes is what I mean.....
I hate hurting people, I hate making people sad. It kills me from the inside out, and yet there is no way to stop it. That's life....

Thanks for listening to me rant....I didn't mean to really... I need help.....